“Possibilities” and “In Consideration”

Possibilities ______________ Sometimes sitting idle I think of what possibilities my body holds. I mean as a child I wanted the wind to carry me. My body denied. After years, I remember it, as cruelty of my body. It seldom agrees with me like the mood of clouds. I know the shadows my body makes, it hides deers, chairs, monuments. So much of this universe. And when I plead to give me a heirloom, its face plays the face of a day-struck owl. Glamorousness of it can be understood as it has the smell of petrichor, unless otherwise adulterated. In whose influence I dig the same curtains of questions. And desire unveils its potential. How it mercied, hide, a black lizard roaming wild through the house walls. It's becoming of the adolescent picnic- souvenir, I caught myself surrounded by a sudden ballad of fear. And ran returning through a late-night bridge hearing some alien footsteps approach me. The silence swollen by the fire moths light at a distance patterned like a constellation made of restive sunsets. In Consideration ________________ In the courtyard sun shafts spill over. This moment seems like a prayer kept in consideration. I stand between this happening and think how devotion creates a world similar to this inside our bodies. I remember in childhood I was famous for searching lost things. I easily slinked beneath beds, chairs and found out fallen safety pins or coins. In dim light they shone like God particles. What is to hold something we assume is ubiquitous. I've made a practice of staring at hidden corners. Dreaming my forage for something shapeless might find meaning. Once I saw a man write something on a piece of paper and bury beneath a stone. I desired to know what he wrote and left behind. Heavy traffic tricked me the way towel tricks water on our bodies. I returned disappointed. What is the word that could've deciphered my sadness, which mattered not to me. I was or am or will be no god granting wishes. If my story is kept in a gunny bag and rattled what sounds shall emit. Something like reliance surrounded by weak want beyond their fading tendencies…